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Monday, January 14th, 2008
11:46 pm	Had a really great night...Saw a movie and then just chatted for two hours. It was nice to just hang out without the entire group. Granted, I love all of those girls, but i'm just saying, it was a nice change of pace. Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Friday, December 14th, 2007
6:05 pm	I can't do this anymore.....I can't have my parents in my face all the time...its just too much. How can they expect me to act like a grown up if they won't treat me like one? Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 24th, 2007
3:58 pm	2 years don't really have anything else to say about that (Comment on this)
Friday, November 16th, 2007
11:00 pm	Molly Molly Molly So, there is nothing to do and no one on campus, so naturally i'm bored. Apparently, Molly has many definitions according to Urban Dictionary: 1. Pure form of MDMA (ecstasy), usually a free powder or in capsules 2. A usualy sluty girl who cares about nothing but herself. also known as a german wash house because of the amount of seman she can swallow. 3. What you call a girl who has meaty thighs and is average looking. 4. Noun. term used to describe a hot chick. Usually a girl in her twenties. Different than a woman in her thirties which is a cougar. 5. Slang for the word "moltov coctail," which is a bottle filled with flammable alcohol with a rag sticking out of it. I find this all to be hilarious, yet very disturbing. Nice work Lisa and Jack Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
11:15 am	Finals I am currently sitting in the library until it is time for my art history exam. I just had my M&P final which was ridiculously hard but whatever. Seeing as how i am too lazy to walk back to my dorm and then come back here within an hour, i'm just going to update now. I leave on Sunday and i am so freaking excited. My aunt is actually going to pick me up from the airport because my parents are still in Maui. So on Sunday, will arrive home, go pick up Charlie from his little retreat center, go to the grocery store and cook dinner. I am so excited to cook, i can't even tell you. I need a break from the 3 months that i have been eating campus food. It'll be two years next Saturday. I think i am going to try and plan a little day trip for Jenny and I to get our mind off it. I am so excited to see her. I havent seen my big sister since the beginning of August! That is much much too long. On the boy front, Tom and i have decided to just be friends. We hooked up once, but he doesn't want to be exclusive, and i know if we were together, i couldnt handle seeing him with other girls...so we're just friends. It sucks, but maybe it will change sometime. This week has been pretty rough on me. On Tuesday, Tom and i talked and came to our friend conclusion which was hard. I actually cried over it so that was pretty intense. But wednesday was the real crazy day. My photo teacher sent me this horrendous email which made me feel like such shit. I had a freak out where i was crying and then started punching the wall in my room. My knuckles on my right hand are all bruised and cut up now. After my freak out, Arielle gave me this herbal sedative thing, so then i went into sort of a catatonic state. It was weird, i was walking around normally, but i felt like i wasn't exacatly there. It was a very strange expierence. Break will be good though. I can spend time detoxing and recooperating from fall term. I'm gonna talk to my psychiatrist about possibly adjusting my medicine, because i think the zoloft just isnt working for me anymore. I have to go to the gyno too and get my last HPV shot and get another pap smear because apparently when they did it before, they didnt collect enough cells so i have to suffer through it again. Yuck. Looking out the window right now, i can see that it is flurrying pretty hard, but it doesnt look like it is going to stick. Whatever, snow is snow! Alright, im gonna try to study in the meantime. peace out Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)
Friday, November 9th, 2007
4:52 pm	it's my own fault i set myself up to get hurt and then i am still surprised every time. i currently hate anyone with a penis. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 30th, 2007
3:59 am	Bed Bugs I have bed bugs. yeah, no fucking joke. I woke up on Sunday morning and i had all these itchy bites on my legs. My monday i had more and they were really really itchy. So i went to the health center...and sure enough! Now, i have to have an exerminator come in and spray shit everywhere. This really sucks. Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
Friday, October 19th, 2007
5:09 am	Good news for once I totally forget to mention this in my last entry...Dad update: So he has just finished up his chemo and radiation and the doctors say he has done a really kick ass job. I'm so proud of him. It was awful to just watch him be sick...i cant imagine what he went through. Basic Synopsis: I think Daddy and I have many more years together :-) (Comment on this)
4:23 am	I was sitting in photo class today and we were having our critique for our most recent assignment. I was sitting there, looking at everyone else's photos, trying to figure out how i fit in. I feel like all of these people are just so much more talented than i am. Nothing specific happened...i was just thinking about it, and almost started to cry right in class. Am i good enough to be here or am i wasting my time and money. Granted, i absolutely love school. I love my friends, i love my classes, i love rochester...but is the feeling mutual? i dont really know what else to say Current Mood: discontent (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 14th, 2007
6:01 am	yeah, i cant sleep Shutterbug814 You are a Healer! (Submissive Extroverted Concrete Feeler) You are a HEALER (SECF)— caring, good with people, and patient. You are completely selfless and full of love. As a concrete feeler, you do well with your emotions, which are very strong. You understand and appreciate *why* you feel the way you do, and for the most part you're at peace with yourself. Suffering in the world really pisses you off. In relationships, it's easy for you to get hurt. Avoid all kinds of dominant (D***) people, *especially* in dating or marriage. You are a motherly figure, even if you're a guy. If you're a girl, make sure you're a mom some day. The world's children need people like you. On the rare occasions when you try to assert yourself, you're cute and awkward, but highly effective. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 8th, 2007
12:48 am	OK, i know i am not the best person at interpreting signals from people....but i also don't think i am socially retard. Correct me if i'm wrong, but when you are sleeping and a SINGLE and STRAIGHT boy crawls into your bed, it very much is a signal. Well when the looooser boyfriend visited, thats what his friend did! "Oh but i'm sure he didn't mean it that way......He was just drunk...it's all in your head" I know what happened so don't fucking tell me i don't. She knows i don't want him here but she doesn't give a shit. She knows what i have been through and that at the moment, i'm pretty fucked up about boys. So when i say a boy crawled into my bed... I FUCKING MEAN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 7th, 2007
1:16 pm	had some weird ass dreams last night involving someone i actually haven't thought of that much recently. weird (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 6th, 2007
11:50 pm	Saturday as Laundry night I have decided to give my lungs and the liver the night off....instead i am doing laundry...because i am a dork. Whatever, this is the first night i haven't gone out since being at school so i think i get a by. Tomorrow concludes parents' weekend (thank god). I was happy to see my parents and all but then i don't know what to do with them. I don't really know what is around because i don't drive, and there are only so many locations on campus that i can take them too. Well, i won't get to see them until thanksgiving so i might as well enjoy their company. Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 2nd, 2007
12:25 pm	Borders of mankind . If the age-old Holy father With calm hand From rolling clouds Segnende of lightnings Over the earth sows. Küss´ich the latter Seam of its dress, Childlike showers Faithfully in the chest. Because with Gods Is not to measure Possibly humans. It lifts itself upward And affects With the vertex the stars, Anywhere do not cling then Unsichern the soles, And with it play Clouds and hoist. It stands with firm, Markigen bone On the probably-created Continuing earth, It is not enough up, Only with the oak Or the vine To compare itself. Which differentiates Gods of humans? That many waves Before those change, an eternal river: The wave lifts us, The wave devours, And we sink. A small ring Limits our life, And many sexes Line up they continuously On their existence Infinite chain. Anyone good at interpreting poetry?? Current Mood: frustrated (Comment on this)
3:08 am	I fucking love Eames' parents. Before i left for school, they made sure to give me their email so i can write them and let them know how college life is. So, last night i wrote a nice long email. Sure enough, i got a response saying how much they miss me and can't wait to see me at thanksgiving. It's perhaps the cutest/sweetest thing ever. Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Monday, October 1st, 2007
4:58 am	4:58 AM I have really fucked up my sleep schedule. The problem is, on the weekend i go out and don't end up going to bed until about 5. So then, i sleep until like 3 and cant fall asleep at night. I wish i had some of my sister's ambien. I am not going to smoke or drink for the next couple of days atleast. I just want to give my body alittle recooperation time, cuz its not used to all the alcohol and weed i'm putting into it. I'm definitely happiest when it's just the three of us hanging out. The two of them are probably my best friends at college, and we just always end up having a kick ass time together. However, Helena thinks i should "tap that". God how i miss that silly girl. (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 30th, 2007
4:41 pm	Last Night is kindof a blur. But i do have this nagging feeling that i did or said something that i shouldn't have. Damn you rum and weed...damn you Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
1:23 am	Thinking about getting my tongue pierced. ya or nay? (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 28th, 2007
7:15 pm	I am just so sick of being alone. All of my friends here have someone special..whether its a bf or just a hook up. But not me. I don't get it. I mean, yeah i havent really being throwing myself out there, but is that what i have to do? Do i need to be ridiculously forward just to get anywhere? I just really need someone to care about right now. It's the fall, and i am already thinking about how it will be almost two years since kevin died. I need someone to get my mind off of him. Every night before i fall asleep, i curl up in a ball and think about how much i miss him. I don't know what to do. Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 27th, 2007
8:46 pm	Seriously I dont know why, but everytime i go to the bathroom to take a shower, i come back into my room and there are people there!! I think most of my friends and others have seen me in nothing but a bathrobe. Its alittle embarassing but meh. (Comment on this)